These things suck, but it's just a small chapter in a big book that is your life. Sure, it hurts now, but in the grand scheme of things, when everything is considered, ... eh! Looking back, I've stressed about so many things that honestly just weren't important. He's one guy and it's a forum on the Internet. You will be okay. It will be okay. I do understand heartache, but I also appreciate letting go a little more as I get older. Funnily enough, my significant other has helped me with that.

I hope you find someone better suited to you, but I agree with whomever it was who said earlier that it'd be best to work on yourself before seeking relationships. I know it's not the most fluffy-bunny reply, but I'm a strong believer in having a solid foundation onto which a relationship can be built, and two people being in a good "place" is, in my opinion, optimal; that isn't to say a relationship can't work, just that it puts more strain on it.

"It is not the beauty of a building you should look at; its the construction of the foundation that will stand the test of time." - David Allan Coe

Since spending ample time to work on myself, I've so far been in the strongest relationship I've ever experienced. Granted, it's only my third serious relationship and currently long distance at that, but it's a very strong one with an almost always great communication, and oodles of love. Has it been perfect? Nah. I think there'll always be struggles as a couple, which, IMO, is where that foundation is key. A building with a solid foundation can probably take a lot more resistance.

Best of luck to you.