Thanks, it doesn't feel like it's going to get better right now but people keep telling me it will so I just have to believe them I suppose. I'm not going to get involved with anyone again though, especially since this hurt so badly. I also hate myself too much to get involved with anyone and this whole rejection has made me do so even more. You have to love yourself a bit before you get involved with anyone, it would be a waste of time doing it. I don't think I will ever stop hating myself so I think being single is best from now on. It's sad but is how it is. I'm too old to change and have internalised the hate for so long now, it's ingrained in me. What I need is a dog who will love me unconditionally. I could do with some of that. I think we all could..lol.