I felt ashamed about promiscuous things I did. I was really confused about why I did it. You seem to have thought about why you did. I later realized there were reasons like low self esteem and having been abused.

I had planned on never talking about it, but eventually I told my husband years down the road because feelings plagued me. I'm sorry I even let it get to me that much. Shoulda just let it go.

It sounds like it is 'out of your system'. Acting with self respect is what is important now.