I completely relate to this Sarah. These same concerns caused me a lot of distress and culminated in me coming in one day (several months in) and telling my T that I didn't think he wanted me as a client, and then I proceeded to be nasty toward myself (I called myself boring and cliched), therapy in general, and even toward him a little bit. (He handled it really calmly and was just wonderful about it really.)

I've been seeing him for around a year and a half now and whatever he thinks of me specifically, I now believe that at least he does genuinely care about me. I don't know where we agree or don't agree but it doesn't feel to me like it matters anymore. He's also very non-judgmental, so I think that if someone had a different opinion than his, he would honestly be more curious about why they think that than he would be rejecting.

I hope that you come to a place like this with your T someday soon.