Thread: Talk me down
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Old Sep 26, 2016, 10:49 PM
unhappydaze unhappydaze is offline
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I'm drunk, but in vino veritas. My wife wants nothing to do with me. We're amiable roommates occupying the same house in order to maintain a facade of normalcy.

We have not have sex in 12 years. She doesn't acknowledge this is a problem. She never - *ever* - initiates so much as a hug. When I try to kiss her she averts her face, and I end up kissing her cheek.

I have the impression she is disgusted with me and no longer respects me as a husband and father. I can't honestly say I blame her. I would be disgusted with me too.

I have a son who has a form of autism. I don't think he would ever be able to process my leaving this world. One of my daughters doesn't want to have anything to do with me. She won't talk to me any more. The other cares but I think she would be able to manage if I weren't here. She is very strong an I think she'll do well in any case. To the extent I've had any influence I think it has been good. I've tried to inculcate in both my girls - be strong, be independent, accept no bullsh*t from any man no matter what.

I feel like I've done the best I can ever do in this world, and it's all downhill from here. But I've fought this as hard as I can for as long as I can. There are a certain percentage of us with treatment resistant depression for whom there is no help, no cure. It's just math. I'm among those who have that diagnosis.

I don't know why I'm posting. I don't think any of y'all have any sort of special insight. It's just that I'm about to give up and I think there are many of you who would understand. You're the only people I have left to talk to.
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