Hey Eyesclosed~ I'm so sorry you are struggling (with the meds, divorce, the emotional abuse, the work situation AND the therapist situation; I bet that's just the tip of the iceberg)

After having valuable treatment/therapy in the hospital from one provider~ it took me some time to find my current therapist. My insurance even got a bit upset with all my intake/Evals. But it won't be worth your time (I dare say it may even be detrimental) if it's not a good fit. Sounds like you already know that.