I don't know anything about what you're experiencing, but you might look into using amino acids to regulate/restore the neurotransmitters in your brain. Check out the book Heal with Amino Acids by Billie Sahley.

So many feelings and emotions are a due the neurotransmitters in our brains being out of balance, and instead of taking meds that really don't do much, it's better to give your body the nutrients in the form of amino acids to produce what it needs to function properly.