I keep having dreams of my cousin, he's a big ahole and we got into a fight to make a long story short.

Anyway I keep having dreams of spitting in his eye and face. There very angry dreams. I don't want to be friends with him again. I don't care if I ever see him again. I just want to stop having these angry dreams.

I don't feel like I have much of a family anymore or ever did, but what's left doesn't feel like much. Maybe I thought I was enter than them. Maybe they thought they were better than me. Idk.