I have been dealing with these swings in moods for some time now. My Dr. hasn't diagnosed me with bi polar, I've been on several different meds trying to find the right one. When I read the list of symptoms it's like I'm reading my life.
I go through cycles where I feel like I can conquer the world and when I'm at work I can really make things happen. I also have the flip side. Which is what's happening now. I just feel so trapped and worthless.
I'm having problems with keeping jobs recently. I have had 5 jobs over the last 2 years. Without taking 9 paragraphs to explain I'll say I left the first for more money, 2nd because they backed out on opening store and didn't need my services any longer, 3rd due to pay cut, 4th due to shut down and am currently with the 5th.I just want it to stop. I don't ever seem to be happy anymore. My home life is outstanding, I have a beautiful, loving wife and a wonderful son. I just can't seem to get it together with my job. My current boss is a major stress point, I don't want to talk to him because I know it will be a 15 - 20 minute session criticism and berating, even if it is not my fault or responsibility. It is causing a major state of depression in my life. Thinking I may not ever be happy with a job.
I guess what I'm asking is how do you deal with work and BP?
Sorry if I seem to be rambling. I'm just having a day.
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