So. I started this thread last night Then I edited it. It was still too "in that moment" but I would like to put it here now. There is absolutely no one that I can talk to about this that would hear me and possibly understand except my counselor and hopefully someone here.

**** TRIGGER ****

When I got to my counselors office last night I was mildly triggered. I usually am. My feet and hands tingle and I'm there but not 100%. There was an emotion there and I told him I thought I was angry. When we talked about that the tingling in my hands and feet intensified.

Things start getting fragmented from that point on. We talked about taking a more physical approach to help ground me. I've used yoga before and it helped but I was so "off" I couldn't do it because I couldn't balance. Walked around the room a bit and wound up siting on the floor.

There was this shaky vibration in my chest. I've not experienced it before. I don't think I know any other way to describe it. It felt cold and it was kind of scary.

My counselor gave me some paper and asked me to write or draw what I thought the anger was. I was going to tear it up and throw it away. I just felt confused. I couldn't think of anything or see anything to draw. All I could think about was the shaky vibration in my chest.

He asked me to write the word "shaky" on the paper. My hand was shaking so bad I could hardly write it. Then! My hand didn't look like mine anymore. It's like the vibration in my chest moved to my hand and it drew a picture. When it was finished, it stopped. The shaky vibration in my chest and hand was gone too.

I've had an experience before with an anxiety episode and my hands vibrated/shook but this was different.

I titled the thread somatic drawing, because that is what came to my mind, trying to sort out what had happened. Put a name to it. It may be called something else. I don't know.

Has anyone else experienced this before?