I feel like my T has taken away any little bit of control I thought I had in our relationship. I don't feel empowered at all. Her boundaries are so tight compared to last time and I'm feeling awful because of them.
She has changed everything and I don't feel like I had a choice in the matter. It feels like a case of 'my way or the highway'. I feel like she's had enough of my crap and couldn't care less about me. Especially as I couldn't have a session this week as well.
I'm pretty sure she's doing it to get a reaction out of me too, because she knows I lash out when I lose all sense of control.
I apologised for my outburst, told her it was coming from a very young place and it will be interesting to explore it and all I got back was 'good. See you next week.' I have no idea what 'good' means? Good for what? I asked her what she meant as I didn't, still don't understand and had no reply. What a shock.
I have to wait over a week to get to discuss what she meant by good. I can feel my emotions bubbling and she will get the full force of my frustration, confusion and anger.

I don't know what to do because I'm very much attached to her. I wish I could say stick it, I'm done, but I just can't.
I'm feeling very unsettled right now and my mind is racing. It's like I'm walking on egg shells waiting for the next change that I will have no choice in.

I think this might well be the beginning of the end. [emoji20]