Didn't listen to this well enough, "if someone try to talk with me than i think i'm good enough to have good conversation, but thing is i try to avoid people, most of time i just don't want them to talk to me"
You just started career that requires attention to detail, concentration and is a bit isolating; and you said you are an introvert. Maybe talking with a therapist would be helpful. Sometimes, when you speak to a therapist about your anxieties, you realize you have been "blowing it up". Lots of girls would think you are good enough!