salukigirl, i totally understand what you're going through. i had the same problem when i first hooked up with my hubby. sounds like you have a wonderful boyfriend. does he know about your ex calling you again? he would be very helpful in getting a restraining order, i think. don't be afraid to try again with the restraining order. i know it's hard when the cops dismissed you as teenage drama. so sorry that had to happen, as it was wrong.

i understand how you feel tired of having these issues. it takes time. therapy can be very helpful with this. with or without therapy, it takes time. it's great that your boyfriend understands. it took my hubby and me a few years, but we got to the point where we trust each other and all that. there will be some things you just never get over. those things can be manageable. i wish you the best.