Went to see the Dr today. I got some good news and some bad news. Good news first. First she was a lot nicer to me and she actually listened to me this time and even commented on how I had really been through something else as of late. She also commented on how its hard to care for me and its a balancing act with all the medications I am on.

She was right though Pancreatitis is pretty much h*** and it was pretty bad starving myself to try and get over it. More good news, she listened to me about the diabetes medications messing me up and basically that metformin was a diarrhea machine. So with that she gave me a referral to a endocrinologist so I can be put on insulin. YAY!

Now for the bad news. She said the tegretol could also have caused the pancreatitis too and pending the results of the blood work she did today I may have to come off of it. Man that scares the crap out of me because I am totally dependent on the tegretol so I am sure there is going to be some withdrawls and also there goes my stability down the tubes.

I also have no foggy clue what my pdoc might put me on. I don't know every mood stabilizer but I do know I cant take lithium no more because it was messing up my diabetes so that's a no go.

I also heard bad things about Depakote so that one scares the crap out of me. I guess that leaves lamictial but I am not sure if that will cause pancreatitis too.

So I guess its a win for the diabetes thing and a big loss for the bipolar disorder. Waiting till I get these lab results tomorrow then guess I have to call my pdoc. Kind of worried about this.