This is my first post on this site and I can see that there are a lot of topics which I find helpful. Soem people like myself have more than one "monkey on their back". Right now, the worse thing I am dealing with is breaking my almost 90 days of controling anger. My husband was so intoxicated last night that he didn't hear me come home from shopping, I yelled, screamed and went so far as to toss a big can down the spiral steps and then yell. Still, no answer. Then I got concerned. I went down to the office and he was dead out cold and I could swear he was dead. I slammed my hand on the desk and finally he came to. He didn't know what time, day, date or anything. He has been on a downward spiral and cannot help but bottom out soon. I fear he may die of alcohol abuse. He has no rhyme or reason why he drinks at least he is not telling me. He drinks a quart a night and worse on the weekend. He is beyone help from me. This has been going on for years and years. We used to fight every night until I tried to slash his throat when he scared the dogs so much so that they both hid under the bed shaking. I snapped but thank God self control get the better of me. I went into the hospital for 5 days. I have not been outwardly angry since. I have learned to channel my anger from negative into positive. After all, it takes much more energy to fight than it does to walk away. I got angry last night. The dogs had to go out, they haden't been fed and the cost of alcohol is about $60 a week. C'mon, when will he get it. If a person is out to destroy their life, they should not involve others, especially the one's that love him. I handed him a knife last night and told him to slit his wrist and get it over with. He is dying a slow death and causing me to die one too. I am at a loss for words. I have to "close my eyes" to the things he does. When he is "tanked", he is obnoxious. Not mean, obnoxious. In other words, he is a PIMA. I have a serious illness and deal with it every day and try not to get him upset of even think about it and that is hard. I just don't know what to do. Unless he hits bottom, he may not come up. Any and all suggesstions will be greatly appreciated.

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