I saw my pdoc today, just about a month after I saw her before. Since her and T1 are in the same office (same business), she knows I was hospitalized again this month. She made a comment that I've been irritable about ever since. She asked what do I think is going on that my coping skills aren't working right now? I took her statement as accusatory. I told her I've been trying my coping skills, but things are high stress right now. She mentioned that it had been a long time between my #1 and #2 hospitalizations, and then #2 and #3 were only a month apart.

Maybe I'm being super irritable because I had my nursing license test this morning and I'm stressed over that. I feel like all the professionals don't know what to do with me lately, and I'm at a lost of anything they could do. I feel like "who cares and why bothering helping me."

I just needed to get this out as I'm super overwhelmed tonight.