I'm losing it cause I'm constantly feeling sick and restless I did just overdose and before that try to give myself toxic shock syndrome within two weeks ago and less than a day ago and a couple days ago but the restlessness is irritating me a lot I pace back and forth across my apartment like a drone knowing there is nothing left here for me but nothing is can do I'd rather just have the hospital take me but then you have to be around people so I'd rather be in prison were they placed a suicidal guy in solitary confinement for two years and forgot about him he was in terrible condition granted but he got a bunch of money I don't think that will be me but maybe a year or two is what I need trapped in a box by myself