Why would a so called higher being, cause this much pain and suffering to his creations! As my title says, I am not, nor ever will be. I do not believe there is a superior being up there or a heaven and hell. If anyone ever reads my posts, which looks like hardly anybody, since it seems to me I am a thread killer. On the 29th I will make a post about something. I do not know where to put it but it will be a trigger and part of the reason why I am an angry bitter person, who hates about everyone I have to deal with. Just search my posts from the last week and you will be enlightened some. If you don`t want to, doesn`t bother me one bit. I came here looking for people to talk to. I stare at 4 walls every single day. All I have is my music, my DVD`s, that I can`t watch more than 20 minutes or so a day and my Beagles. I am an only child (now) brought up in a very physical and emotional household. I actually sent my mother a message today, letting her have it with both barrels for lying to me for over 20 years about a few things. I knew but today, I had reached a boiling point and let it all fly. My oldest daughter has miscarried twice, so I have two little ones that never knew life. I just don`t understand, if there is a mighty being up there, why would he allow all this??? I will get off my soapbox now, like anyone will read this anyways!