Need some advice from people with experience, I'm so confused. It's very hard to think at all. I feel completely detached from my surroundings, it isn't the same as depersonalization/Derealization, it's much worse. Everyone i see and my closest family feel like imposters. I feel unsafe 24/7. At the same time i feel NOTHING no fear, love, hate, remorse, or attachment. I have bouts of anger or fear but it's not right. I feel less and less motivated every day. I think about suicide everyday. I hate everyone around me and want to be alone all day. My vision is very distorted. Everything is very bright, moving and just seems abnormal. I have time lapses where my surroundings change and i forget where i am. I am a young guy and have no drug use history. I go days without sleeping (because i can't), people have pointed out that i walk and move very strangely, "Parkinson's like" and they tell me i have no emotions. I always feel everything anyone does relates to me, for example I'll think random people talking are laughing at me, or that everyone is staring at me. I feel every car that passes me will attack me. I find myself crying or laughing hysterically for no reason. I stare at nothing for long periods of time and feel NOTHING AT ALL. I don't experience voices thankfully but i often hear my name in the distance and my hearing gets worse. Lots of confusion, to the point where i can't speak or compose a comprehensive sentence. I don't feel like I'm mentally ill but i want to kill myself, my therapist says anxiety but the meds are not working so far and i would appreciate a second opinion...