"am i so self centred and self obsessed and disgustingly arrogant and demanding?"
ho no you are not and i understand how horrible it can be! when no 1 gives you attention and you really need it!

it`s o.k and yes i htink you better except the feeling you have at a certain moment without self judgment because this never helps you get rid of the feeling.

you are not a nuisance..heck how familiar his feeling of " iam a nuisance" and stuff..

my sugest is to leave alone the "reality check" and let go of it. try to let go of control and not to stress so much about it. i
if you suiceed to do that chances are you start feeling better
hugs
"lady MCB"