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Originally Posted by cryingontheinside
I'm currently addicted to a class drugs. My brain is telling me to stop or at least try to but I have a churning in my stomach that is an excitement that I might do drugs today since I have money on hand. Do I have to fully want to stop before I can succeed or should I try to make attempt even if I'm not sure I'm ready? Also my mental health makes me reluctant to go out in the community so meetings are more than a challenge. Are there any alternative help available such as online help I can use on my phone since I don't have a lap top. All these excuses. Yes I know . I can here myself! Grrrrr I want to stop but I don't but I do. So hard to deal with these emotions. Can you go to rehab for drugs that aren't physically addictive but mentally addictive ? Any advise appreciated. Thanks for reading !
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Like you, I tried many times because money and substance (suboxone was my thing) and hookups were always around. Didn't help that my own brother had a play in it. Well finally I got sick of being a slave to it. It was to a point where I wasn't even getting high anymore. But like any other opiate, I needed a little bit here and there to "get right". Well I'm BP and also started drinking again at that time. Well after drunken night of pure hell from my doing, I ended up in IP and that was enough to make me stop. It wasn't easy. I still get cravings but when I think of the withdrawal it makes me stop. I notice you said you're not sure if you're ready. Sobriety is a life long battle and commitment. I was just sick of being a slave to such a nasty drug. Think to yourself all the reasons you need to quit. And more than anything, lose all contacts with hookups!!!! My bro and I used to call eachother all day looking to score but now I only talk to him about once a week. My other contacts? I deleted and blocked their numbers. Temptation is too easy to give in to. That was my big problem. If you need help and support please don't hesitate to PM me.