I know exactly what you're going through. I'm bulimic so I eat all the food but throw it up. When I was 18, Drs told me I wouldn't live more than a couple years. I'm now 29. I'm hooked on sugars and cheeses and salt and any kind of junk I can get my hands on. It fills a void. A boredom. It makes me freakin happy and numb. Studies prove that eating these processes junk food releases endorphins just like sex or a drug. I totally feel your pain. If you ever want a distraction or someone to talk some sense iNto you feel free to PM me. I'm not glad your hurting but I'm glad I found someone on here going through what I do almost every day.