So I saw the anaesthetist today for my preop assessment.She said there were possibilities for complications for the operation and for my recovery.She said cos I had sleep apnea the risk of a heart attacks and breathing difficulties were high,and cos of my diabetes the risk of infection was high too.I will probably need an oxygen mask after the surgery.So in light of all that I will be taken to the High Dependency Unit after the surgery for 24 hours.She said if the issue hadn't been as urgent as cancer they would not be agreeing to do the hysterectomy.So when she said that I said,that makes me think and feel that I am going to die on the operating table.She said you are not going to die but there will be difficulties that we have to be aware of....not feeling very happy about any of it but I have to have the operation so I am going to try and be as positive as I can.
I still don't know in my own mind though if I will survive the operation or whether I will not have anything serious happen to me after that might mean severe disability rather than just the chronic stuff I deal with everyday right now,we will see!