I've had this feeling for literally as long as I can recall and I've spent over 20 years trying to make some sense of it or trying to get people to take me seriously but to no avail. When I was little...about 3 or 4, I said that I had a 'dear wife' and named her, and was once married. I stated shortly after, ''she would be very old now'' (over 100). I also have this weird attraction to a specific era in the early 20th Century. But, it also gives me a sickly feeling. Not really a romanticized feeling, but a 'dark' feeling.
I also have ''impossible memories'' such as an accurate memory of my own birth, memories of being in utero and also of being somebody else in another time and place. The town had wide roads, lots of trees, the shops had these banners on them and were packed closely together. People tell me ''you cannot remember your own birth, your brain would not have been developed enough'' so what remembered? The memories were confirmed accurate by my parents.
I also have a scar on my ''current'' body, where I was wounded in the memory where I died. I was not aware of the scar until recently as it isn't visible for me.
I loved to draw at an unusually early age. I'd draw stickmen and things like that, but then I'd spontaneously draw drafts of mechanical objects and concepts for submarines (one was of a tear drop shaped submarine with four 'wings' and two 'jet' at the back. Another drawing was of a mobile watch, which could read heart rate, tell the time and to be used as a phone), planes and cars, and they were annotated and measured as well. Take note I was only around 3 years old, and there are no engineers in the family.
At age 6 I tried to discuss consciousness to my parents, but they could not grasp what I was saying. I felt disturbed by my own consciousness, as well as my body. I didn't recognize my face, voice or my body as my own.
Please help me make some sense of this, because this has caused so much confusion in my life with no answers.