I'm glad your going to a help center tomorrow. It won't be easy . I am a recovering addict and alcholic. I have been clean and sober for 25 yrs. The one thing that helped me was a worker at the detox center told me if you can't get sober for yourself do it for your kids. I made up my mind and never looked back. Do it for you , your kids but do it. You won't regret trying. Good luck tomorrow.