Well, I'm not even sure where to look for help. Even Google searches aren't helping much. I'm not sure what to call what I'm going through.

It's a bit of an identity crisis, I think? Let's just say what started as me trying to set up my social media for my art portfolio ended with me stressed out for days and crying. I don't like my name. Seeing my name in an url or blog title gave me a negative feeling I don't have a word for.

I keep changing my social media names. I keep researching how to change my name legally. But when I bring it up to my partner and friends, they are confused and surprised. They don't understand what's wrong.

"Whatever, I like your name. What's wrong with it?"

Anyway, I can't even productively work on my blog and art portfolio because I'm stuck on my name and the whole concept of "branding yourself" as an artist and writing.

What is this I'm feeling? What information should I be looking at for help? I feel stuck and trapped. I want to be okay with my name. I want to comfortable with it. I want to not care about my name and move forward as a professional artist.