Even with the grants and federal aid I can't afford the most basic university. I've already used up 70% of my savings at this point, and its disappearing before my eyes. I don't have the mental capacity to apply for full-time work, nor the means of transportation to get there. I already work part-time on-campus, but its not enough by any means.

Overall I see no hope. I've tried applying to scholarships, but now they all are for the Spring. I can't afford the rest of my semester. I'm just at a loss because I still need $8,000 to pay for this semester alone. I've been apply to scholarships, but I'm not confident I'll get them, and am really struggling to find enough, especially since most of them also won't be publishing results until I'm already bankrupt with missed payments.

I'm stressed to the point that it is killing me. Literally. I'm trying to see a point in this. I'm trying to understand. I can't take much more, and if I'm stripped of my ability to go to university I'll lose my therapy access, since I can't afford it on my own, and that's the only thing that is keeping me slightly sane.

I don't know who to go to. I don't know what to do. I don't have any ideas or knowledge on how to deal with this in general, and it just seems impossible...any suggestions would be appreciated? Just so you know I also don't have a credit score since I use debit and have been up to this point frugal with my money and saved, so I'm literally f**ked from every direction in every way...

If I'm kicked out I wish I was exaggerating, but I will kill myself. Its already hard to keep myself from doing so despite the pointlessness of all this work I've done to try and pay for it.