This is super scary to leave... it takes the right time and way.. You are worth so much more then being in an abusive relationship!! I know we don't feel like it, because it is pounded in that we don't relly matter, what we think or feel. but the very notion you are considering this and thinking about it and reaching out here is a huge step.. I started with a domestic abuse support group, then went to my pastor who thankfully actually helped,, the pastors previous only made it worse.. then a therapist ... after all that .. it took him to abuse my daughter then I drew the line and never went back... I really pray that you get strenghtened and know how special and valuable you are and your kiddos !!!