Dear Jerricchoo,
I have a niece who has was diagnosed with Aspergers at a very young age (in high school now). I love her. She is kind and enthusiastic, can occasionally get angry, but I find the anger refreshing. She is just expressing her feelings and it stems either from a misunderstanding or something quite valid. The anger is infrequent and she is quick to forgive. When it comes to academic and technical talent she is brilliant. My father and her parents sometimes consult her when they have issues with their iphones and ipads. Like you, she is a gifted writer. I think your posting told your story in a very detailed way. I have the impression that people who have Aspergers can achieve their aspirations when they have some additional support such as a therapist who has experience and training in the area. The one thing that seems rough is that you no longer live in a big city so their may not be any therapists (counselors?/groups?) who are familiar with how to help you best. I think that if you can get moving in the right direction, things might improve for you. I hope you can start working toward your goals soon. Sincerely, Myst