SSI is my only hope left. If I don't get it, I WILL be dead within a year or two. I currently live with my father and he is absolutely clueless when it comes to my mental health. He keeps telling me to "just man up." I can't write what else I wanted to due to legal reasons. The social security people treated me like I was pulling a prank when I finally gathered the courage to apply for SSI. Why does this country not accept that depression is a disibility? They WANT me to just go and die, and I would, but doing so is illegal. I simply can't win.