Yeah, it has been complicated though. It's taken me 5 and a half months for anyone to take me seriously, but now everyone finally is and it's working out easier than I thought. There's still bumps in the road - paying my dad 40% of my pay-per-hour to watch the kids hurts - but I guess we gotta do what we have to do.

Child support payments won't do as he doesn't make any money.


Nah, there's no lies. The things she's upset about happened, but her making it like it's cheating is wrong. We weren't together technically, and yeah maybe it seemed like we were because we were kinda acting happy again and flirting with the fantasy of a cute little wedding and ****... but I was still severely depressed about **** that happened and nothing felt the same. So when my guy friend kinda talked me into having sex with him in some weird way that now looking back seems really bad and I should probably stay away from this guy... uh.. idk. i was saying i didn't want to cause i felt guilty, like i would be doing somehting wrong, and he said that because i was single, because my ex and i weren't technically together even though we were living and sleeping in the same bed still, it was okay. anddd typing it all out now I realize i'm really naive and it's annoying to myself even..

i dont really want anymore sarcastic comments as well by the way. I have zero close friends in real life. I have absolutely no one to talk to who isn't trying to either get in my pants or get money from me and it's really scary not knowing when or if you're being manipulated and by who. i have an anxiety disorder and depression but im a single ****ing 21 year old mom who's working overtime through all this **** so i dont really need the extra judgement when i'm trying to figure out what exactly type of hell im living right now.