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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster
Why is it a matter of when and not if? Killing somebody is a choice. You can simply choose not to. It's worked fantastically well for me, I've never killed anyone. 
I know you said you were depressed, but was there any other reason(s) that you tried taking your own life?
Void of emotion? What emotions are you void of?
Do you love your child? I'm asking that because this is the ASPD forum, I don't mean that question as any sort of insult.
If you're no longer depressed then why do you want to kill yourself?
Why do you want to feel something? Have a specific feeling in mind?
Why are you so convinced that you're going down a "dark road"?
If you think you can't control your violent behavior either towards yourself or other people, you need to admit yourself to a psychiatric ward. |
I really dont have answers its just like there is nothing going on inside i can feel anger and rage but thats about it , thats not all the time but im quick to jump to it , its even like when I read your questions, Its like I get a overwhelming sense of dumbness its like I cant think of an answer which in return makes me want to put my head through my laptop screen . And the bit about my son I know I love him but its hard to be around to him , but its not just him i can't be around anybody.When im with people I get really irritated and feel uncomfortable and it starts hurting my head when they talk to me, I guess i've just grown to prefer being alone. I always avoid the people closest to me who have done soo much for me , its messed up I dont even know whats wrong with me or whats going on . And ive told the police and hospitals many times i'm feeling dangerous and im likely to hurt somebody and there words was they can't do anything until i've actually committed the crime , but once ive been out and hurt somebody the last thing im going to do is confess to it , I may be a bit unhinged but im now smart enough to cover my tracks and keep me out of police custody after so many years of being arrested, I don't want to be like this . I see everyone around me having there nice family lifes, working , going out on weekends with friends and I know I could have these im not physically disabled but something inside me just forces me to push everyone anyway I really dont get it there must be something wrong with me and some sort of treatment