Thanks guys. It's beyond appreciated that you took the time to comment good thoughts.

Im so sad. But im so medicated I can't even cry.

The meds wear off around 8pm, so I'm probably gonna have a breakdown later.

My bff is coming over tomorrow.

I email my family updates on my health, and I sent todays update earlier and they haven't answered yet. Which is weird bc we habe a group email going and I usually get a quick answer from atleast one person.

But, my hubby is here and my babies are happy so I'll have a good cry, then live life.