I recognize a lot of your feelings from when I was 20 and in college and realized I had to go out into the "real" world after I graduated and panicked. I had a whole world in my head too so I started "killing off" people there and that upset me and I realized that if I couldn't get rid of "people" I had created in my imagination, then I was in big trouble.
I started psychotherapy that fall (1970) and just "finished" a couple years ago (2005).
If I could do it all again I would spend more time around other people and do more things "out there" instead of in my head. Ignore at least 51% of what your head is telling you and just "try". You can't get experience unless your try different things. Don't worry about being wrong, not understood, or afraid. And keep asking your mother to get your help; therapy or psychiatrist or something.
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