So I got very upset yesterday after the anaesthetist said if the surgery wasn't urgent I wouldn't allow this operation because you are not fit.So I thought long and hard and did not actually want the surgery I didn't want it from the beginning,so I decided I wouldn't allow them to operate on me.I cancelled the operation myself.

First of all I am now cancer free,the MRI and biopsies showed that.So why is a hysterectomy urgent.There was from the beginning a question mark over whether I had cancer but the consultant practically ordered me to have a hysterectomy.This upset and angered me.Surely there is the option to monitor me regularly and first sign of precancerous cells do a D&C scrape to remove them,why force a seriously ill and unfit woman to have major surgery that is dangerous for her to go through.

The more I thought about how they had painted a blacker picture than was actually the case to get me into the operating theatre the more angry and upset I got.

So I wrote a letter of complaint to the hospital saying I refuse to have a hysterectomy and I refuse to see this consultant again cos he didn't give me a chance to decide and review my options,he didn't even tell me I had other options not even after the MRI scan showed I was cancer free.So I've asked for copies of test results and to be informed in writing I am cancer free that there is no urgent need for a hysterectomy and that there are other options.
I asked for a woman consultant to oversee my monitoring and a different MacMillian Nurse cos this one lied to me.

I feel I have been messed about and put under unnecessary stress and caused me distress,I am furious to be made to feel unless I have a hysterectomy I am going to die then to be told I have no cancer and still be made to feel the cancer could come back and kill me and that there is no time to lose the womb has to come out.****ing butcher doctor!And nurses!I hate them,they are unfeeling ****s.

So now I have to look after my body and make myself fit.Eat healthy,lose weight and exercise.I was and still am taking medical cannabis and I think if I had extensive precancerous cells that is what got rid of them,You can't tell the doctors that they don't listen or want to know.**** them.