I have felt totally flat and feeling-less during depression and related med changes. 3mg of risperdal floored me and I felt nothing for months. I"m on 2mg now and I do feel dulled at times but then I get hypo and don't feel dulled. I would give anyting to have my old life back before things fell apart. It does no good to wish that though, it's hanging on to the past. I'm trying to be more in the present lately and focus on what I can do today, not trying to climb a mountain overnight bc I decided after 5 hours of sleep that I'm healed and fine. Cycling f'in sucks. Sometimes I want to totally taper off meds completely and see where I'm at for a few months. It would take a few months to do that. Inside I know I'd get manic and end up in hospital off meds. Maybe someday I can get off them, but it's not anytime soon and I've resigned to that.