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I truly believe that women are useless and only good for cleaning the house, taking care of kids, and servicing their husbands. Ih ave thought that for as long as I can remember.

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((((((( Munkee )))))))))

Let's look at that statement. I suspect that recognizing that belief here where you are discussing a problem shows that you know at some level that that is a false belief and is at the root of your problem. What do you think? Recognizing it is a nice step. Changing it comes next.

If you told any other woman in the world what you said that you believe about women, how do you think they would react? Would we accept that? Probably not, unless we also share your problem with very low self-esteem (I won't say none, because 2 isn't zero). Okay, do you really believe that all women are useless? Would you tell me that I am useless because I am a woman? I didn't think so. Okay, so what makes you so special?

Maybe you will change your story and say that it is because you have schizophrenia. If that's the case, let me tell you about my brother. He had schizophrenia, and he killed himself because he believed that nobody would ever want to marry someone with schizophrenia, and that he couldn't do anything useful. He was a very intelligent person, a talented artist, geneologist - had naturally taken up the role of family historian. But he felt useless. He didn't like his body. His medication made him put on some weight. He was sure that nobody would ever be attracted to him. I read your posts and wish that my brother had been able to see that people with schizophrenia can get married and do things that are important to them. He could have too, if he had known that he could. Would you call him useless too?

I hope that my words don't sound too harsh. I'm just trying to challenge your beliefs and show you that the things that you see as limits don't have to be. Maybe nobody has told you that before, or maybe they have. Self worth doesn't come instantly, but if you concentrate on something that you can do, then it will come.

TC,
Rap