My current problem is that in my desperation to break the between questions silence, I sometimes say something to is totally not accurate or true. Then I leave the session and in reflection realize that half of what I said was just total bull and likely made me look like a complete insensitive ballass. No wonder she must be totally aggravated with me. I keep throwing her off track with inaccurate, not well thought out statements. She is likely not answering my emails because she want to let me squirm in thought for 3 weeks. That will teach me to waste valuable therapy time spouting out a bunch of ********.

I know Perna logically I need to stop jumping to conclusions about what she is thinking or trying to do. It just how I am feeling at this moment. I have no evidence to support it and no reason to feel this way.