Well, I saw my psych today, and talked with him. And it's definitely OCD.
When I described what I'm going through, especially the very unfounded suspicious thoughts about my boyfriend, the doctor said "suspicous"? and I said yes because that's exactly what they are, and they're so heavy. Everyday it seems constantly they're in my head and I get sooo anxious, etc. And it's not only him too! It's against some friends and family too. I didnt know that being suspicious, unfounded suspicions, is OCD.
Well he gave me another prescription for Cymbalta, 30mg, and Seroquel, 25mg, (I got off the Seroquel because of feeling that I didn't need it anymore, but now he feels I do), and we're going to see if the combination helps. If not, when I go back to see him in a month, he'll put me on Luvox.
I want to be free!
Wait. And my OCD isn't only thoughts. I also have the continually checking kind, checking the stove, faucets, radio, etc for a zillion times it seems!