Thank you for your responses. I realized this summer that if I was going to try to get better, I would have to try to have some friends. I've done a few things with that girl I was talking about in my post. It feels so weird sometimes.. it's like I can't connect with her (or anyone, really). I've heard this a lot but I really think that other people know something, like this big secret, that I don't know, nor do they want me to know. I feel like I'm sitting somewhere and watching people live their lives through a telescope. It's ... odd. I'm trying to figure out how to just be able to talk to people like a regular person and have friends but I keep failing. Well, I'm still trying though so maybe I'll have some kind of breakthrough.. hah.