Hello

Oh I should have posted a little about my background. I didn't think of that. I am 27 years old and have been suffering from Anorexia for 11 years. It's been at it's worst during the past 4 years, and I have been put into treatment 12 times because of it. I just got out of my last treatment stay in August from a place that I stayed a year at. It was a really good place. After being "refed" and gaining about 80 pounds, I'm now at a so-called "normal" weight (which I'm not sure I'm too happy with... ) Right now, I'm seeing a therapist that I have been seeing for three years, a dietitian that I have also been seeing for three years, a new doctor, and a new psychiatrist. He just upped my meds because of depression and whatnot. I have told my therapist about this (and other problems) somewhat, and she is getting worried again as she doesn't want me to go downhill again. As we put it, I've become "boring" again in therapy. All I talk about is weight and weight related things. I go in there with the best of intentions, but then it never goes well.

I've been lucky in terms of insurance. I have Medicaid since I do not have a job (once again due to the Anorexia... I was forced to resign my job because I was sick and have been hospitalized pretty much continuously ever since. I am just trying to get a job now and am not very successful). They paid for my entire year long stay at my last treatment center. My parents fought with them to pay because I was dying I'm not so sure that insurance from a job would have been s good to us

Anyway, so here I am, "normal" weight, eating more or less "normal" foods as agreed upon between myself and my dietitian, but with some ED behaviors (I'm not sure if I'm allowed to mention them), and still obsessed with what I eat and do not eat. It's terrible. That's pretty much my story. I hope that I got everything.

Thank you for replying so quickly! This is the first forum that I have found in a while that is not pro-anorexia!

Bjork