Sounds like classic garden variety mania. You can't see it but we can. You're being given a gift here, a heads up, to go get help before you spin out of control. Of course mania feels good in the beginning, we all like it, we all feel kind of magical, but it's illusive, a trick, we are actually sick and getting sicker. You have the opportunity to catch it before it gets worse. And with biolar the higher you fly the farther you fall. Remember the fallout that happens after the mania. No fun. So we try to stay even.