Thanks again everyone. The love is amazing!

I have heard back from my grandma and my aunt. That was nice. My mom hasnt said anything yet. Im worried shes freaking out and doesnt want to worry me.

Ill talk to her tomorrow on the phone.

Im worried that i didnt cry. Im just being rational. I came up with my plan for surgery, what i want to be tested for, etc. Then went to bed. My husband was up all night. He threw up today from stress twice. And is treating me like I'm broken.

I'm just doing what i normally do. Im not even sad.

I told my closest family. My 2 bffs and my old work bff.

I havent told my dad yet, and we just started talking 2 weeks ago after over 2 years. But he does know i had weird levels and gave me advice.

Idk when ill tell him.

Im just numb? Maybe? Too rational.