Mouse, Thanks I guess I am a bit up set. And the fact that I am upset scares me. I am more angry with myself than with T. In trying to explore the dark inter-working of myself, I have given someone the power to affect me and I should have never done that! I guess I am just a bit confused and aggravated because I am realizing now that I have no idea what to make of what is going on between my T and I. I don't understand how the professional relationship works, what to expect, what not to expect. It seems like you are supposed to openly communicate and expose all of your fears, pain, and insecurities to them and trust that they will help you reconstruct a healthier, stronger, more aware "self". I'm feeling like a weaker more screwed up self instead. I'm just questioning what the heck I am doing. I should have just left well enough alone.

I feel like I allowed myself to be sucked into needing to talk about stuff and awakened a desire to connect with others on a deeper level. Now I'm scared I've lost my most valuable attribute--my independence. I actually care that this person has not responded to me! Why did I allow myself to depend on someone who is ...nice....helpful...attentive... but who when all is said and done really doesn't give a hoot if I show up to chat or not.

I'm sorry maybe what's happening between the questions is NOTHING.