I hope your week off will be good, Will19.

I got to my opthalmologist appointment with my friend's help. The taxi fare was almost $60 for the round trip. I'm so stupid - I told them I'd get my new glasses and contacts through them, when there might be cheaper places closer than the office in that town.

The glasses are going to be around $200 or something and about the same for the contact lenses.

They are leaving the cataracts until they get a lot worse because they said the surgery could pull on my fragile retinas.

I feel like I accomplished nothing. I have to go back there. I don't know how it will work out. I'm so upset.

And my friend had a bad two days and he gets very upset and repeatedly says he will kill himself. That makes me crazy with fear and worry.

I feel so down and I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to be here on Halloween because I'm afraid they'll pull some crap on me. When we were on the hallway side of the door, there's like a big white paint mark next to the door knob. Done by that pos janitor. I really want to move away from them.