Sick or I don't know. Maybe I just feel horrible without sertaline. Bought Minecraft for my laptop yesterday and didn't play it. Stomach hurt after I ate anything. Laid on the floor listening to tv shows about murder until my partner got home. Went to bed and slept 13 hours. Didn't wake up for evening meds...wonder how I'll feel today, but I don't really care.
I was supposed to do outdoors stuff, but it's raining and once I take morning meds I'll probably be too tired again and even more angry. Tried to put away clean dishes, but I just want to break them all.
And my "until there's nothing left" repetitive intrusive thoughts of self-harm/sui are back. So glad they don't want me to take sertaline. Heaven forbid I be hypo. High five. Ten out of ten decision. (med management appointment on Monday...I'll try not to destroy anything much in the meantime)