Thank you all so much for the kind words. I agree it's better to be alone than with people who make you feel lonely. I just don't feel like leaving my husband will help my case right now

I'm having a particularly bad day today. Unhappy AND not functional. I am on meds for panic attacks, just lorazepam. But it makes me feel even more depressed .. Like today I had to take one and I'm just too tired to function. I hate them

I would like to try anything that's not medication form, so Thankyou il check that out!

I do feel utterly hopeless. I'v cried a lot today.