Hello Dechan: Well... I don't know if just wanting to stop being depressed, or just ignoring it, could be a sign you're coming out of your 14 month episode. Maybe it's a start! What I can tell you is that I'm simply not giving myself a choice. I'm quite certain I could be seriously depressed if I allowed myself to do so. One of the reasons I force myself to keep going is that I'm scared of where the bottom might be if I ever allowed myself to sink.

Many years ago, my father used to say: "You're not required to like it. You're just required to do it." I guess there is a sense in which, for better or worse, that has become my motto. For me, there is no healing... no recovery. There's simply putting one foot in front of the other day-after-day. I don't know if everyone can do that. There have been times when I wondered how long I could keep it up. But I seem to be doing so. So I guess what I can say is, at least in my case, it seems to be possible to simply ignore depression & carry on. I don't feel happy as a result of doing so. I also feel sick & tired of the whole mess most of the time. And I think it also has sapped a lot of my energy. But that's just the way it is.