Deep within the light's gone out
I'm in the dark without a doubt
feeling the walls, damp and cold
sinking down, no more bold.
can't die, don't want to live
can't give up, what can I give
but misery, grief and sadness
because inside of me lives the badness
rotten to the core, full of shame
people have it worse, so I'm to blame.
Too many years left ahead
how will I do it, I'm on a thread.
Too weak to fight, I'm too confused
flashbacks of dread, of being used.
I lived life wrong, right from the start
shouldn't have let them steal my heart
my innocence or my pride......
When they did that I should have died.
Or told someone what was going on
because the guilt, it weighs a ton.
All the others, can't you see
were abused as well because of me.

I am nothing, noone, a traitor, I could have stopped him, she could have stopped him, but we didn't. I'll see him in hell because I didn't stop him and he'll carry on hurting me.

K