I have been thinking about this for a while. I was talking to my therapist about how tired I am. I explained that I miss the days when I could work seventy hours a week. Her response was do you think you were manic at that time. I just responded with I don't know I was not tracking myself then. She then informed me that I am going through an anxious depression. They prescribed me an anxiety med but here is the thing...I am pretty sure one of the others Meds is causing the severe anxiety. For the record my knowing I am in a depressive episode has done nothing to make me feel less tired.

I wonder if it really benefits you to label yourself as hypomanic depressed manic etc. to question whether or not you are in psychosis . It is one thing to be in psychosis or not realize what you are doing. If you're able to label yourself as psychotic chances are you're not. I even asked my psychiatrist about that.

I have been thinking about this for a while. I have been thinking about dropping the Meds and the therapy and go about my life. It feels like a hoax, a way to get money. If I kill myself I am dead I won't know any better. I am still suicidal anyway. I still get depressed and hypo when on the Meds. I now know the warning signs so I can take appropriate action in natural ways.